27 4 / 2012
08 4 / 2012
Yesterday, I was hanging out with a couple of my good friends. We just got onto the topic of family. My friends, they’re a couple. The girl has divorced parents. The guy, his father passed away when he was young and his mother never remarried. I was talking about my parents about something and my friend interrupts and asked me, “I don’t want to make this be awkward but I’m just wondering..how does it feel to have two parents?” I seriously just froze and all that would come out of my mouth was “Uh….” I really didn’t know how to answer her question. All I could explain to her is that I was unsure because I don’t know how to it feels to grow up with a single parent. I’m positively sure life is much more difficult. Especially if one had passed away.
She really thought that parents that stayed together had the perfect life. I told her sometimes that isn’t the case. I know many married couples stay in their own individual bedrooms because people settle. Fights can be brutal.. physically.. emotionally. I felt like I also needed to share my stories when my parents weren’t getting along where it affected me emotionally during school. Any who…when she threw that question at me, I was totally caught off guard. My heart dropped, and I really didn’t know what to say..
On a brighter note, my niece is so hilarious. She face timed me just to show me Big Bang music videos on Youtube. Every time Taeyang was on, she would be like, “Auntie, I like him.. Taeyang.. him.. I like him.” Every time T.O.P. was on, she would be like, “Oh Auntie, there’s your favorite. You like him? Yeah, there’s your favorite again. Oh, your favorite.” Ahh.. soo cute.
03 2 / 2012
Just… make it stop. Scatter brain. Tired. Unmotivated. Uninspired. Happy. Sad. Annoyed. Funny. Energetic. Crash. Deadlines. Dazed. Sleepy. Stars.
I thought roller coaster rides run at least 5 to 10 minutes. Why hasn’t mine stopped?
17 1 / 2012
People tell me I’m a great listener, I’m always there for them, give great advice… ya-de-ya-de-daa. There’s nothing wrong with that. When it’s the time where I feel like I want to “express” myself or tell someone how I feel, I always get interrupted or shut down. Am I over reacting? Maybe. People are so used to me not saying anything about myself or expressing how I feel. Doesn’t that make anyone question if I am doing okay though? I don’t know, my stress level is higher than usual, and I am in need of a good conversation. Trouble is, the people I want to talk to are never available when I need them. Do I feel a little bit of rejected? Yeah, I can’t blame them though. I just have… bad timing. -_-‘